Will start to prepare myself for my flight back soon in a couple of hours time. I cant wait to go home. Though TE Assignment is still waiting for me to be completed, which I dread to do so. Whatever, I just hope that the 12 hours flight back will be smooth with no hiccups.

8 days flight seems forever. Time passed so slowly. Used to be damn happy whenever I get a states flight. (Yesh, I'll still looking forward to my next states flight.) But for once, I miss home so badly. So so sooooooooooooo badly. Or rather, I missed myself in the arms of my loved ones, having long chats with Mummy, all the TLC I received back home, being treated like a princess.

12 hours will pass soon.

This time in the shop-till-you-drop New York city. Gosh~ Of all times, this is really not the best timing to fall sick. Think its because of the cold, chilly wind that made me caught a cold last night. Blame myself for walking in the rain, ducking through a few blocks just to find the Coach boutique. Nope, not another bag for myself. For my Vivi dearie instead. It turned out to be a fruitless trip cos the item was out-of-stock. Damned it!

TE assignment 1 is still pending on hold. How to complete within the time frame when Im still coughing outstation? With my aching body, feeling hot and cold at times, irritating throat, heavy head, weary eyes, Im beginning to feel worried. =((((((((((((((((((

I wanna go home now!!

If ever I can turn back time, I wish I never did that dreadful JNB flight before. Wish I never get to know that casanova steward!! And that horrible batch gal. Now it becomes a nightmare for me. Words had been spreading about how I went after that guy. Chasing HOT. For goodness sake,

HELLO!!
I DONT DO SUCH THINGS LOR!!

!@#$%^&!@#$^*%$@!&@^*^%%*)#^&*($#$

Heard about this gossip thingy since last September from my close friend. And now they start to bring back the past, and continue from where they had stopped. All thanks to F, who spin tales to E. What have I done to the both of them, to incur them from spreading gossips about me?? Tell me, what wrongs have I done to them? I never ever wanna see the both of them again. I write them off as my friends.

Very upset over this matter. Yesh, I know its their mouths and I cant stop people from thinking whatever things that they want. But Im really upset. I dont know why, but streaks of angry tears just flow down my cheeks. I dont even think I've done anything unappropriately or anything wrong with my behaviour, for them to say such unpleasant things about me.

Treat others how you like to be treated. This is what I've always been telling myself. I dont wish others to gossip about me, therefore I dont do the same things to others too. Okie, sometimes I do, but once in a while, unlike them. At least I dont say nasty things about others. For I strongly believe in, what goes around, comes around. How I wish I can tear their mouths open or do something to keep their traps shut!!

If words go into that bunch of bitches' ears, THATS IT!! Salt and pepper will be added and fuel will be added to the flaming burning fire!! By then, words will be twisted and stretched much further like ermm.. PLASTERTINE!! Yesh, I named them BITCHES!!Cos they are really one hell group of them. Now my reputation is tarnished all thanks to them!! Gossips really kill!!

The best thing is, I'll be flying with one of the bitches next month. Slap myself for changing flights for off days to attend class. How can I pretend that nothing has happened when I know this gal has bitched about me? Im not the great, fakey pretender. Never before. What should I do next time when I met one of these bitches? Smile and pretend that I dont know a single thing about what they had said behind my back??

I dare to say, I treat everyone sincerely and genuinely. I dont hide my feelings, thats why my besties can read me like a book. I'll laugh out loud if Im happy, my cries are loud too if Im sad. Like means like, dont like means dont like. But sad to say, hyprocritiscm is so common nowadays in the dog-eat-dog world.

Im so affected by this matter. Lose my focus of attention which should be diverted to my never ending assignments. Gotta sacrifice my volleyball training on Firday night as well. I wanna go for training!! Boo hoo!!

Thanks for being my listener and comforting me, consoling me even when you are so busy with your work. Thanks alot dearie. =)

And of cos, bestie no. 1, for calling me just when my tears were flowing uncontrollably at that moment. Never fail to hear me whine.

Had an early lunch just now at the vietnamese joint. After buying my drystores and hair spray, went back to my room to catch up on my much needed beauty sleep. Only to realise that I didnt get enough food to last me for 2 meals. -_-"

And now Im super hungry in my room! Drinking lotsa water, chewing on my Starburst gummies while typing on this entry. Too lazy to walk down to Hungry Jacks to grab a bite. Weather outside is abit chilly and windy. Dangerous for me to walk out alone in the streets too, at 1.49am local time.

Well, treat it as a dieting session then. Poor Bet.. =(

Oh, its someone's birthday again.

I was walking in circles after I alighted from bus 23, trying to locate Tampines Street 11, Avenue 2, Blk 138. As I walked one step nearer to my destination, suddenly my heart stopped pumping for a second.

"Do I really have to do this?" I asked myself, while biting my lower lip.

Handed my crew pass over to the lady and signed the form, stating that Im not pregnant at the moment. Had difficulties sitting down cos of the soreness on my thighs. The guy sitted beside thought I had sprained my leg, thus coming here for x-ray. Its my nose lar, not my legs. He smiled back and looked quite embarrased with his question. Hehe. Drew was supposed to accompany me for the x-ray, but couldnt make it because of work commitment. Cant blame him as his workplace is located right at the western end of Singapore.

Im worried, very worried.

Wished that someone could accompany me to see doctor, but Mum was working and everyone was busy. Always been afraid to see doctor or dentists since young. Wished that my Drew was right beside me at that point of time. Though his far away, constant sms-es was assuring and comforted me in some way or other, I still wished that he was there right beside me. Giving me a peck on my forehead, telling me that everything will be fine.

"Dun be scare. No matter wat happen, I'll stand by you." Thanks alot dearie. =)

The nurse called my name, I entered the room with heavy steps and hard breathings. Removed my earrings and spectacles as told. Leaned against the x-ray board as instructed by the radiologist. Facing the board, with my chin leaning on it, my tears almost dropped. I dont know why, but Im just so afraid that something bad might happened. My heart felt so uneasy, as if it was occupied by millions of butterflies flying in my empty stomach. Prayed that nothing goes wrong.

3 slides of x-ray taken, I went out of the radiology room. Was asked to go back first while they despatch the report to the doctor. However, I insisted that I wait for the report and bring it to the doctor personally. I've already waited for so long, dont mind another couple of hours. Just wanted to get everything done once and for all. I need to have an answer.

The anxiety of waiting almost killed me! Thinking what would have happened to my nose. Whats the outcome of my report? Why am I always having nose block and sinues? Is my sinuses curable? Thousand and one questions start floating in my head.

And so, I waited for an hour. Could have been longer, but the staffs were really nice to me. Took the bus down to RMG and on my way there, I walked past Nissan showroom, displaying the latest Cefiro, March, Latio, etc.. Nissan Roadster was indeed a beauty! Cant help but steal a few more stares, admiring the black machine. Too bad didnt get the chance to see Fair Lady. But I believe that in the years to come, maybe I'll get the chance to sit in it. Well, maybe.

While in RMG, the same doctor attended to me like my previous visit. Opening the super huge white envelope, she took out my report amd read,

"PARANASAL SINUSES

Normal appearance of the paranasal sinuses.
There was no evidence of mucosal thickening or air fluid level seen.
ENLARGED right inferior nasal turbinate with mild nasal septal deviation to the left.
No bony abnormality was demostrated."

Me: "Huh. So what does it mean??"

Doc: "Which means your bone structure is crooked, leaning more to the left. Your left nostril is smaller than your right, thus always experiencing nose blocked on the left side."

Me: "Oh, so you mean I have a crooked nose like a witch? But exterior looks fine to me leh. Any cure for it? How can I make it straight back?"

Doc: "You are born with a crooked structure Miss Tan. Unless you go for a nose surgery, to adjust the bone back to the centre. If you want, I can refer you to an ENT specialist for further checkups."

NOSE SURGERY??!! Did I hear it wrongly??

My jaws fell opened as I listened to the doctor word by word. Oh please, the word surgery already sent shivers all the way to my spine. Im so petrified of pain, and what if something went wrong during the surgery? Just the thought of it already gave me goosebumps. Doc continued saying that its NOT a must thing to do, however, if I dont do it, I will keep having flu and block nose. Aiyoh, why like that?? Havent get the chance to sit down and talk to my family about this matter. But spare me the knife please. I rather sniff my life away than to go for the surgery. Im serious!!

Oh yah, and doc mentioned that Im sensitive to dust and advised me to sleep in a dust-free environment. To prevent my sensitive nose from getting irritated again.

My question now is, do I use my last finger to dig my left nostril and my index finger to dig the right, since one side is bigger than the other?? Haha!

Well, at least now I know that my nose isnt in danger. A burden off my load FINALLY. Phew~

Its been 3 years since I touched volleyball. Ever since I played my finals at poly, no chance to come in contact with vb anymore. Firstly, because of work committment. Secondly, scared injured myself during training. (The life guards in my poly last time used to call "容易受伤的女人", cos I always injured myself during my canoepolo trainings.) Haha!! Thirdly, is because my good old sec school is no longer around, which means no training ground anymore. *sob*

Still remember, the day when I got posted to Pei Dao, I cried. Because I didnt get into any of my 6 choices and its just a normal secondary school which nobody has ever heard of. I laughed at cousie Winston for entering such a lousy school when he received his PSLE results. And I got posted to the same school as him!! Now I really believe in a thing called RETRIBUTION!! Haha! But Im thankful that I entered this school. Its just a stone's throw away from my place, so convenient. And I got introduced to volleyball, the best sports ever, the best thing that ever happened to my life.

Like what bestie Dy had said,

"Volleyball...
a sport which brought me tears, joys, laughter, pain, bruises, muscle soreness, injuries...
a sport which taught me discipline, determination, hardwork, confidence, leadership, sportsmanship...
a sport which earned me glory, victory, respect...
a sport which made me some friends for life...
a sport which gave me a mentor i'll nv forget...
a sport which gave me the best 4 yrs of secondary school life in Pei Dao...
a sport which gave me memories which are priceless...."

Indeed it was true!! Credits go to my most repesctable coach, Mr. Lim Bah Seng, one of the best vb coach found in Singapore. Under his "devilish" trainings, 5 days training a week, moulded us from zero to heros! In the vb world, everybody knows Pei Dao cos we are LEGEND!! I say, we are a "branded" vb school. Representing my school and wearing the jersey with my favourite number 10, is a form of pride. Trainings with my seniors and my most fun loving teammies, were the happiest days of my life till now. No doubt we did had our fair shares of quarrels and unhappiness, but jokes were in the air most of the time. In the team, there's no "I" but "WE". But sad to say, the furtherest in my 7 years ofvb career was only a silver medal.

I miss the school hall, with the "ping piangz" vb hard smacking sound. I miss the skipping rope, which we gotta skip 1000 times on Saturdays. I missed the 2 rectangular tables (my phobia), which my 2 poor legs always kena bruised. I miss the old FM radio, which kept us companied throughout trainings. I miss mopping the whole court and hall with my teammies, creating jokes and laughters. I miss rolling down on the floor, in an attempt to save the ball from falling. I miss the unique "physical" training, which made us frowned and always trying to escape. I miss Lao Shi's whistle, giving us long lectures and pointing out our mistakes, so that we dont commit it again. I miss Lao Shi calling out my chinese name and replied "YO!" during attendance marking. Of cos, I miss doing 3 rounds of duckwalks for being late! Hehe. I miss Lao Shi's scolding us "Fen Dan" either for being late or didnt perform to expectations. I miss Lao Shi going away for "relac" grocery shopping at NTUC, and how we created havoc in the hall. For guys, its soccer time. For gals, time to take a break and chit-chat among ourselves. I miss the smell of victory. I miss singing our team song, with the Pei Dao never-say-die spirits!!

There are so many things that I missed!! Awww.....

Playing for Temasek Poly also made an impact to my life. For once, I tasted failure and how it taught me valuable lessons. To stand on my own and pick myself up again whenever I fall.

And so, I finally get the chance to play back my favourite sports once again, with my seniors and buddies! I've been dreaming for the day to come sooooooo long, even in my dreams! Training started on last Saturday at NIE. Flashback of memories start to appear in my mind once again. Preaparing for the Open Cup tournament in August. Gosh, Im so excited!!

Doesnt matter if I have to sacrifice my sleep to go for trainings. Doesnt matter if the last training left me patches of blue-black bruises on my arms and soreness on my thighs. Doesnt matter if I cried in my sleep this morning because of leg cramp. As long as I get to play the passion of my life, everything is worth it!!

I can hear my teammies shouting "HOORAY" with me. :)))))))))))))))))))

Im back from my killer 320 London flight! Both sectors work EY is no joke. When your rank is stucked in the centre, hanging in the mid-air neither here nor there, you get lousy work position like me. Haiz.. All kinds of situation happened on my flight. You name it, I had it!!

Didnt slept well for the past few days in London. First sector I understand, maybe because of the hlaf can of Red Bull that I shared with Wendy. Day 2 was disturbed by the vibration of the constant sms of my friends' latest roster. Speaking of which, my May roster is okie. Got a 8 days AUH-JED, ADL, AMS and on exams leave. Well, though I would love to maintain my AUH-JED, a pity I cant do it cos it clashes with my final revision class for this semester. Aunt and cousies will be touring in Europe next month. Which means I can meet up with them and Uncle Desmond in Amsterdam for lunch! Family gathering outstation. Maybe can even go sightseeing together. Yeah!!

Back is aching like hell. I need a massage badly. Nose bridge is in pain again. Think I really need to go for my X-ray asap. Time of the month, "big aunty" gotta pay me a visit when Im during such a siong flight. Damned it!!

For now, gotta grab as much rest as I can. Today's schedule is packed to the brim. Attending ASCM class later from 2-4pm. Then, gotta rush down to Adidas to buy my new pair of shorts. Volleyball training with my sec school seniors at NIE from 7-10pm. Complete my day watching midnight movie with my Drew.

Life's good, isnt it??

Oh yah,

Part 5 @ Marriott High-Tea

...Tai-tai wannabes...

Anyway, was happy to see Vivi too! Even though we extended the time that we supposed to meet for 30 minutes, she'a late as usual. Tell me whats new? We then proceeded to Marriott Hotel lounge for high-tea. Our tai-tai wannabe session. Updating each other the latest and hottest gossips thats happening. Small chit-chat "ba gua" session. Hehe. Was glad to hear that she's going to upgrade herself and pursue her degree. Jia you Vivi!! (You have my greatest support!) Walked around Far East Plaza for awhile before we bid each other goodbye. Im on my way to my part 6 celebration while she went home. Wanted to go Zouk that night, but our dear Mambo kakis, "Rich Girl" Nana was too tired after returning from a turn around flight. Oh yah, thanks for your pressie Vivi!! Remember to send me your roster regularly so that we can meet up often. Muackz!

Part 6 @ Waraku Japanese Restaurant-Marina Square

Its a tradition to celebrate my bdae with my family, relatives and the bdae boy! My Qing Mei Zu Ma, cousie Winston. On that day, 20th March 1984, all attention should be placed on him since it was his 1st birthday. However, Mum was feeling painful and I couldnt wait to get out from her stomach, to share his joy and happiness. In the end, all my relatives went to the hospital to see the born of a lovely princess, ignoring the presence of him. Haha. What are the chances for cousies to share the same birthday?? Very very slim. Well, its fate that we become cousies. Not to say Qing Mei Zu Ma for the past 23 years. Still remember last time during our birthday, he would always get to blow the candles first. After he's done, he would remove his candles and I'll place my own candles on the cake. By the time we cut the cake, it would be full of poke holes. Haha.

...family dinner...

Well, just a simple dinner with my grandma, Aunt Angie and my family. I have to recommend Waraku!! Its becoming my next favourite restaurant, after Anderson Black Angus. Go to the Marina Square branch. Their food served is better, staff are friendlier and more approachable. However, do make your bookings in advance to avoid looooooong queue.

Part 7 @ Billy Bombers-Heeren

Headed down to town to get my bdae pressie. A nice and latest bracelet from T&C, chosen by my bestie no. 2, Lindy. She always has good taste in everything, and I know I can count on her when it comes to advise. From fashion to sports, studies to relationship. She's like my twin, know what I want, understand how I feel, without me saying a word. "You thinking what Im thinking??" *hugz* Proceeded to Billy Bombers for dinner, after hesitating on where to eat. Its also a gathering for us since Lynnette is finally back for good from Brissy. Our regular mahjong kakis, the square table is so empty without you. And so, they came up to my place for a game. Mum forgot to buy dice and know how did we played in the end? We used 2 candy, wrap them up as a cube and write numbers over it. Still managed to play lar, but the dice could never exceed more than 13. I wonder why too. Too bad didnt take any photo of our "magical dices". Hehe.

Ruifan was supposed to learn and serve us drinks, but left the earliest cos of school the next day. Felicity ended up being the sole winner, winning all our money. Nette from win alot, to lose the most after sitting my luncky spot. Dy got improvement in her skills too, thats something commendable! Haha. And now I know where's the feng shui place to win the most money and of course, the most unluckiest spot which I will prevent at all cost in future. What about me?? Lose also lar. Haha.

...the sistas...

Part 8 @ Swensens-T2

Gotta dragged myself out of bed at 10am in the morning, to go back to airport for brunch with my ex-82D teammies. Lyna was supposed to join us, but last minute changed flight to Taipei nightstop. Why back to aiport T2, you may ask? Cos our dearest LSS Celest just returned from her flight and thats the only timing that we could meet up cos she's super busy with EVERYTHING. Its great to see her in her "ninja turtle" suit and she looks fanstatic in it! Matt was back flying, after being on medical leave for almost 6 months, for injuring his back. Wedding bells will be heard soon in July for Matt and Sam! So happy for them. REJOICE!!

Part 9 @ Hogs Breath-Holland V

Still in close contacts with my ex-IBMer colleagues. Will meet up for dinner whenever any of our member's bdae is around the corner. CNY will be spent at either one's house and Xmas is the biggest occasion that we'll celebrate, where we'll organise party at a hotel room. Oriental, Pan Pacific, Swissotel, Fullerton suite. Where next this year?? And we always have a theme for our Xmas party. Leathery, A-go-go, Glamorous, etc. Big Head Leon always kena forfeited for not obliging to the theme and Ah Beng Terence always amuse us with his funny Hokkien verse and songs. Heard that Bollywood is comng up next. We shall see. Looking forward to it.

Mummy Irin couldnt make it for dinner cos of her 2 little devils at home. Career woman Maglin and Gigi-Leong-lookalike Chloe couldnt make it too, cos they were busy packing stuffs in their new boutique shop opening the next day. Had to leave early for my assignment while the rest went to part 2 celebration at Clarke Quay. The group is slowly expanding, everyone started to settle down and start their own family. And maybe because age is catching us on them too, they prefer to relac at coffee joints rather than clubs with the noisy music.

...thanks for the sunflower guys...

Perfect 10 Steamboat @ My Place!

Finally, the last bdae celebration was with The Gals. Theme this year is to have home cooked food at the bdae girl's place, prepared by the bdae girl itself. Steamboat is the safest and the easiest to prepare. Okie, I played cheat. Mum did the cooking and most of the preparation, the soup base, dessert and even cooked a pot of Mee Siam for the girls. They stayed in my room chit chatting and laughing over how to pronounce the word "A-S-Y-L-U-M". Haha.

...2 HUGE feng shou ang baos...

Mum was the appointed photographer of the night, helping us take polaroids with my toy. Now she's damn pro and steady using my polaroid camera k! After many trial and errors, wasting a couple of my films. The Gals came with 2 BIG ang baos and left with their bags full of tidbits. They were so fascinated over my 2 big containers of junkies and took their favourites back home. Giotto chocolate tops the list!!

...cam-whoring polaroids...

You think all the sinful, fattening, oily makan-ing sessions stop here?? Nah.. It continued to my HKG holiday trip the following day. Tell me how not to get fat??

Extremely happy for this year birthday. Dearie is around to spend bdae with me. Kekez. Well, may all my wishes come true. :)

Gosh, my face is getting rounder. I dont want a round face!!

H...E...L...P....

pressies from my Gaultier darlings. *hugz*

Brian kor,Belle, Min Min, Robert & ME

welcome to club 23!!

Part 3 @ St. James-Dragonfly

Received a last minute sms from cousie Winston for bdae celebration countdown at St. James. Not again, I thought. Was referring to the birthday boy being KO and the nonsense he's gonna create when he's drunk. True enough, he was drunk. AGAIN!! In the presence of my other sec school friends. The rubbish that he uttered, super tah-glam lor!! Whaha.. Okie, but I think all of us had too much to drink. Fancy 12 of us opened 6 bottles of Hennesy. Siao boh.. They drank like a fish and as if they have 4 kidneys like cows. Those guys are really crazy! For once, I down my liquor with green tea. The jasmine "ah-nei" taste. Yucks! Rather than to trouble people for other mixer, I just drank with green tea. Just not my cup of tea. Eeeeeee...

..that fun and crazy night..

00:00 sharp, strings of warm-hearted bdae wishes started to flood my inbox. Received my first bdae phone call from my dearest Drew. Muackz!!

Part 4 @ One Rochester Park

Just a simple and quiet dinner with my Drew. Explored the whole place as it was my virgin visit. Heard so much reviews and comments about this place from newspapers and magazines. Quite a nice place to chill out. We've picked North Border restaurant for some western cuisine. Friendly staff. Good service. Nice ambience. Assorted sauteed mushroom is a must-try as a starter! However, price is slightly steep. Overall rating: GOOD. Bring your partner next time for a nice and romantic dinner or some friends for a glass of wine to chill.

Everybody is soooo concern about the progress of me and my Drew.

All: "So how did you celebrate your bdae with your bf? Where did you all go?"

Me: "One Rochester Park for dinner. Just the 2 of us."

All: "Wah, so romantic! And what did he get you for your bdae?"

Me: "Nothing. Not yet, I mean. He's busy with his exams right now."

All: "Huh?! Excuse lar. How can dont give present?"

Me: "He's really busy with his revision. Moreover, he PROMISED to have a 2nd celebration with me after his exams. A nice dinner together with my present, as a compensation for spending so little time with me." =)

All: "Oh, thats better. So are you happy with him?"

Me: "What do you think?"

All: "Must be lar. See you everyday so happy, so smiley!"

P/S: Dr Ang, dont forget your promise wor~ Hehe..

......to be continued......