If ever I can turn back time, I wish I never did that dreadful JNB flight before. Wish I never get to know that casanova steward!! And that horrible batch gal. Now it becomes a nightmare for me. Words had been spreading about how I went after that guy. Chasing HOT. For goodness sake,

HELLO!!
I DONT DO SUCH THINGS LOR!!

!@#$%^&!@#$^*%$@!&@^*^%%*)#^&*($#$

Heard about this gossip thingy since last September from my close friend. And now they start to bring back the past, and continue from where they had stopped. All thanks to F, who spin tales to E. What have I done to the both of them, to incur them from spreading gossips about me?? Tell me, what wrongs have I done to them? I never ever wanna see the both of them again. I write them off as my friends.

Very upset over this matter. Yesh, I know its their mouths and I cant stop people from thinking whatever things that they want. But Im really upset. I dont know why, but streaks of angry tears just flow down my cheeks. I dont even think I've done anything unappropriately or anything wrong with my behaviour, for them to say such unpleasant things about me.

Treat others how you like to be treated. This is what I've always been telling myself. I dont wish others to gossip about me, therefore I dont do the same things to others too. Okie, sometimes I do, but once in a while, unlike them. At least I dont say nasty things about others. For I strongly believe in, what goes around, comes around. How I wish I can tear their mouths open or do something to keep their traps shut!!

If words go into that bunch of bitches' ears, THATS IT!! Salt and pepper will be added and fuel will be added to the flaming burning fire!! By then, words will be twisted and stretched much further like ermm.. PLASTERTINE!! Yesh, I named them BITCHES!!Cos they are really one hell group of them. Now my reputation is tarnished all thanks to them!! Gossips really kill!!

The best thing is, I'll be flying with one of the bitches next month. Slap myself for changing flights for off days to attend class. How can I pretend that nothing has happened when I know this gal has bitched about me? Im not the great, fakey pretender. Never before. What should I do next time when I met one of these bitches? Smile and pretend that I dont know a single thing about what they had said behind my back??

I dare to say, I treat everyone sincerely and genuinely. I dont hide my feelings, thats why my besties can read me like a book. I'll laugh out loud if Im happy, my cries are loud too if Im sad. Like means like, dont like means dont like. But sad to say, hyprocritiscm is so common nowadays in the dog-eat-dog world.

Im so affected by this matter. Lose my focus of attention which should be diverted to my never ending assignments. Gotta sacrifice my volleyball training on Firday night as well. I wanna go for training!! Boo hoo!!

Thanks for being my listener and comforting me, consoling me even when you are so busy with your work. Thanks alot dearie. =)

And of cos, bestie no. 1, for calling me just when my tears were flowing uncontrollably at that moment. Never fail to hear me whine.