I was walking in circles after I alighted from bus 23, trying to locate Tampines Street 11, Avenue 2, Blk 138. As I walked one step nearer to my destination, suddenly my heart stopped pumping for a second.

"Do I really have to do this?" I asked myself, while biting my lower lip.

Handed my crew pass over to the lady and signed the form, stating that Im not pregnant at the moment. Had difficulties sitting down cos of the soreness on my thighs. The guy sitted beside thought I had sprained my leg, thus coming here for x-ray. Its my nose lar, not my legs. He smiled back and looked quite embarrased with his question. Hehe. Drew was supposed to accompany me for the x-ray, but couldnt make it because of work commitment. Cant blame him as his workplace is located right at the western end of Singapore.

Im worried, very worried.

Wished that someone could accompany me to see doctor, but Mum was working and everyone was busy. Always been afraid to see doctor or dentists since young. Wished that my Drew was right beside me at that point of time. Though his far away, constant sms-es was assuring and comforted me in some way or other, I still wished that he was there right beside me. Giving me a peck on my forehead, telling me that everything will be fine.

"Dun be scare. No matter wat happen, I'll stand by you." Thanks alot dearie. =)

The nurse called my name, I entered the room with heavy steps and hard breathings. Removed my earrings and spectacles as told. Leaned against the x-ray board as instructed by the radiologist. Facing the board, with my chin leaning on it, my tears almost dropped. I dont know why, but Im just so afraid that something bad might happened. My heart felt so uneasy, as if it was occupied by millions of butterflies flying in my empty stomach. Prayed that nothing goes wrong.

3 slides of x-ray taken, I went out of the radiology room. Was asked to go back first while they despatch the report to the doctor. However, I insisted that I wait for the report and bring it to the doctor personally. I've already waited for so long, dont mind another couple of hours. Just wanted to get everything done once and for all. I need to have an answer.

The anxiety of waiting almost killed me! Thinking what would have happened to my nose. Whats the outcome of my report? Why am I always having nose block and sinues? Is my sinuses curable? Thousand and one questions start floating in my head.

And so, I waited for an hour. Could have been longer, but the staffs were really nice to me. Took the bus down to RMG and on my way there, I walked past Nissan showroom, displaying the latest Cefiro, March, Latio, etc.. Nissan Roadster was indeed a beauty! Cant help but steal a few more stares, admiring the black machine. Too bad didnt get the chance to see Fair Lady. But I believe that in the years to come, maybe I'll get the chance to sit in it. Well, maybe.

While in RMG, the same doctor attended to me like my previous visit. Opening the super huge white envelope, she took out my report amd read,

"PARANASAL SINUSES

Normal appearance of the paranasal sinuses.
There was no evidence of mucosal thickening or air fluid level seen.
ENLARGED right inferior nasal turbinate with mild nasal septal deviation to the left.
No bony abnormality was demostrated."

Me: "Huh. So what does it mean??"

Doc: "Which means your bone structure is crooked, leaning more to the left. Your left nostril is smaller than your right, thus always experiencing nose blocked on the left side."

Me: "Oh, so you mean I have a crooked nose like a witch? But exterior looks fine to me leh. Any cure for it? How can I make it straight back?"

Doc: "You are born with a crooked structure Miss Tan. Unless you go for a nose surgery, to adjust the bone back to the centre. If you want, I can refer you to an ENT specialist for further checkups."

NOSE SURGERY??!! Did I hear it wrongly??

My jaws fell opened as I listened to the doctor word by word. Oh please, the word surgery already sent shivers all the way to my spine. Im so petrified of pain, and what if something went wrong during the surgery? Just the thought of it already gave me goosebumps. Doc continued saying that its NOT a must thing to do, however, if I dont do it, I will keep having flu and block nose. Aiyoh, why like that?? Havent get the chance to sit down and talk to my family about this matter. But spare me the knife please. I rather sniff my life away than to go for the surgery. Im serious!!

Oh yah, and doc mentioned that Im sensitive to dust and advised me to sleep in a dust-free environment. To prevent my sensitive nose from getting irritated again.

My question now is, do I use my last finger to dig my left nostril and my index finger to dig the right, since one side is bigger than the other?? Haha!

Well, at least now I know that my nose isnt in danger. A burden off my load FINALLY. Phew~