Here I am, over at the land of fashionista.

Feelings inside me still haywired. Though problems at home were solved but Im still upset.

Upset over why it happened.
Upset over how the situation turns out.
Upset over being forced the way I didnt want it to be.
Upset over the things being said.
Upset over EVERYTHING!!

Its affecting me that I have simply no appetite at all. Even my favourite french fry cant make me happier.

Bestie No. 1 said nothing is a problem when money can solve it. True.
Bestie No. 2 said theres nothing that cannot be solve. True also.

Feel the urge of crying very often recently.
(I know, its inside me. Cos Im a big time CRY BABY!!)

While talking to mum the other day, while preparing for flight, I cried.
On my way to airport talking to Bestie No. 1 over the phone, I cried.
Very distracted throughout the whole flight. Cant seem to focus my mind. Forgot to bring my bunch of keys. Forgot to bring my camera (My 1st time to Milan leh!!), I cried.
During the lull period, while using the toilet, I cried.
Checked into the hotel, while talking to Shulin, I cried.
MSN and chatted with Bee over the phone, telling him how I felt about the overall incident, I cried. TERRIBLY!!
On my way to Florence and Pisa in the train, while listening to my iPod, I cried.
When I saw couples embracing, I cried.

Where did all these tears triggered from? It just flow so easily.

Im upset over the things that you said.
Upset over your insensitivity.
Upset that those words came out from the guy whom I thought I can spend the rest of my life with.

Your words keep floating in my head every now and then. I told myself to stop thinking about it. I know I have to move on. But right now at this moment, I just couldnt help it.

It just hurt me so much...... Maybe you can never understand how I feel right now.

Migraine is back again to haunt me. My head hurts too. Its as if its exploding soon. I need a remedy. I need a good sleep really.

God, please take away all my pain away.
I just want to be happy again.